You’re all probably getting fed up with me posting about this but there is another angle from my anxiety post from a couple of weeks ago. See, after I had my little bout of frustration over the fact that Eva had lost every match in the bundle of wrestling matches I had purchased, I emailed her. I told her how wrong it was that she lost every match. I know wrestling is scripted but I pointed out to her that she had too much wrestling talent to be a jobber. A couple of days later, I got an answer from her saying she appreciated my support but she simply followed a script and the she really didn’t mind if she won or lost a match as long as those watching it enjoyed the show. I conclude she is a class act.
Since then, my anxieties have drifted. I now worry that Eva thinks I’m a complete saddo or some mentally deranged stalker. Okay, stalker isn’t the right term but she thinks that I might be taking the wrestling too seriously and that I’m some sort of nutter over it. While, I can say that neither the above is the case, I realize that I never should have emailed her directly over it. My motivation was at the time was that she would tell me matches she won so I could buy them. I think the reality is now that she won’t because she wants people to buy her matches regardless of the outcome.
The problem was that reacted to the emotion before the logic kicked in. That is a common trait among people who suffer with Asperger’s Syndrome. While many people react with emotion before logic, the case is double for people like me. If I had taken a deep breath and waited a few days and let the logic kick in, I might have realized that it wasn’t worth emailing Eva about it but the people who run the promotion instead, which I did do and the person in charge sorted things out by putting together a package of matches where Eva emerged victorious. I was a very happy camper after that. Plus, I was invited to write a script where Eva wins her match, which I did and it was filmed at the weekend and should be available soon.
My logic in the matter was simply this: The package was five wrestling matches involving Eva. Since she was the featured wrestler, it is natural to think that she would win some, if not all of them. So, when I watched her lose them all, I thought it wasn’t right. I even considered asking for a refund but that was a moment of petulance. Unfortunately, for me, that logic took a back seat in my brain and the emotion took over and as a result, I emailed the wrong person first, Eva instead of the person who runs the site selling the downloads to the matches. While everything is cool now, the promoter is already trying to get me to write another match for July, I can’t help thinking that Eva thinks I’m some sort of saddo. I know I shouldn’t care and I will probably never meet her but the fact someone might think those things about me does disturb me.
The lesson I have learned from this, one I should have learned years ago, is that whenever any sort of incident or crisis happens, I need to step back, take a couple of deep breaths and try to logic it out. Think before I act is a good policy here. Shameless link to “He Was Weird,” in most cases, Mark was never given the chance to do that, the bullying was too severe. Although he did think before he acted in the end and the result was catastrophic for many others. Maybe they should have thought before they acted.
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