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This is a question I have been asking myself for the past week after my post on why my book, “He Was Weird,” wouldn’t make for good television viewing on the programme, “Active Shooter-America Under Fire.” I have watched three episodes of the mentioned television show and have recorded a fourth and will watch it. Furthermore, I have read four other books about school shootings. All of this has accumulated into me wondering whether or not I have some unhealthy fascination about mass shootings.
When I read the books about school shootings, I read them out of fear of being accused of plagiarism. What I discovered while I was writing “He Was Weird,” was that there are so many books about mass shootings there, it now has its own sub-genre. A bit scary if you think about it. However, I enjoyed reading all of those books. If I had more time, I would read more books on the subject. In addition, I have watched TV documentaries about Sandy Hook and Columbine and there was the film that first introduced me to the subject of mass shootings, “Bowling for Columbine.” I also have to admit that I also enjoyed watching the film “Runaway Jury,” which is about a civil case brought on as a result of an office shooting. Reading those books and watching those programmes and films makes me think that maybe I do have a fascination about mass shootings.
If I do have a fascination with mass shootings, the question to ask is why? One reason could be that people with Asperger’s Syndrome get obsessed with a couple of interests. So, obsessed sometimes, it’s what they only think about. Throughout my life, I had interests that I was extremely fanatical about at the time. Some of these were Native American/US Cavalry wars, American football, ice hockey, World War 2, and horror movies. One could argue that mass shootings is just another topic I am interested in. But do I obsess about it? I don’t like to think I do. An argument against was that with the recent school shooting in Florida, yeah, I followed it on the news but I didn’t go out of my way to do so. I wasn’t flipping through the news channels or surfing the net to gain more knowledge about it. It was the same for Sandy Hook and Las Vegas shootings. I followed them but not religiously.
I think the reason why I am asking myself if I have such a fascination about shootings is that I fear that while I might not have one now, I might develop one in the future. Maybe writing this post is a good way to keep my thoughts in check. I know a lot of people who have metal health issues write for the same reason. Writing about it is a good way to deal with it. However, no matter how much I fret about whether or not I am developing a morbid fascination with mass shootings, the one thing that has always rang true with me about them was that whenever I learned about a school shooting taking place, my first response has always been, “This could have been me.”
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